October 1 is the Feast Day of Saint Thérèse of the
Child Jesus and the Holy Face.
Since her death over 100 years ago many millions of souls
have sought the spiritual wisdom of St. Thérèse. In her life of suffering in,
through and with the Love of Christ Jesus, we discover depths of spiritual
direction which guide us when we are lost in the fog of our sin. Often, when we willingly re-engage in situations which have brought about
spiritual darkness in our past and which we know may cause risk to our souls
once again, we may find our thoughts caught in a fleeting pause for just a
moment to ask: “Why does God decline to prevent my headlong descent into my
repeating sin?"
Multiple responses flood the mind in answer to that
challenge.
Perhaps we might immediately remember that we are made in
God's Image, that we are empowered with free will which allows us the dignity
to reason and control and shape and take responsibility for our lives in the
choices we make (CCC 1731).
In His Self-emptying and Self-Sacrificial Love for us, God
will never violate His gift to us of free will. However, knowing our
inclination to sin, but never compromising our free will, God gifts us in
advance with a grace which gives us strength to reinforce the spiritual
fortress around our soul. With this gift, God then patiently and gently
and with deep respect invites and encourages and enables us to choose to do
good.
Yet, still we fall.
And after our fall, and despite our acknowledgement of God's
gift of free will, our question may hold a little change in our verb tense ...
"Why DID God decline to prevent my headlong descent
into my repeated sin?"
As we reflect, we may recognize that when we choose to sin,
we endure the consequences of our decision. And they usually always bring
sorrow, or pain, or isolation or spiritual darkness or all four. Knowing
that we may continue to subject ourselves to such consequences, we find
ourselves asking again:
"Why does God decline to prevent my headlong descent
into my repeating sin?"
When we have indeed given way to commit sin, we may finally,
on bended knee, beseech God's response to our question but now we ask it in the
humility of prayer. And now, God immediately responds because He cannot
resist a humble soul.
Spirit Lord will rush to that humble heart and He may
direct us to the words of St. Paul:
"God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may
share in his holiness” (Hebrews 12:10).
St. Paul is revealing God's astonishing desire, His
invitation to a sinner. His invitation to us.
Our Saint is telling us that, even after a moment, a day, a
year, a lifetime of endlessly falling into willing sin, God, Who never abandons
us especially when we sin, is disciplining us in the painful consequences of
those sins, not because He is punishing us, but because He yearns to share His
very Holiness with us.
GOD WANTS TO MAKE US, SINNERS, DIVINE LIKE HIMSELF.
St. Peter reinforces this almost unbelievable Desire of God
when he teaches us that we may become "partakers of the Divine Nature"
(2 Peter 1:14).
We may sit in awe, wondering if what these two great figures
of the Apostolic Era are saying to sinners, us, is true.
St. John of the Cross replies:
"A total transformation in the Beloved, in which each
surrenders the entire possession of self to the other with a certain
consummation of the union of love. The soul thereby becomes divine,
becomes God through participation, insofar as is possible in this life"
(Spiritual Canticle).
With every fall into sin, no matter the grievousness of our
sin, the Lord God waits for us to turn back to Him. And when we seek Him, even
if we are still a far way off, Our Father sees us, has deep compassion and love
for us, runs to us with arms wide, catches us in a huge embrace and kisses us,
and then gives us everything He owns (Luke 15:11-32).
He gives us Himself.
He makes us a sharer in His Divinity.
He makes us Divine, like Himself.
St. Thérèse of the Child Jesus and the Holy Face understood
the pain of falling into sin, how it offends Love and wounds Him, how it brings
suffering upon and into ourselves. She offers us a "little way" to
subject our sin to God and so give Him glory, even when we have sinned and
wounded the One Who loves us, even when we are unable to attend the Sacrament
of Reconciliation.
Our giant of a Saint gives us the profound Spiritual
Direction of THE ART OF FAILURE.
Thérèse was most aware of the pain of suffering, spiritual
suffering, emotional, and the heights of physical suffering and these were
gifted to her from God, not always consecutively, but often simultaneously. She
recognized these as His "favours", lovingly sent to her.
When she was asked if her Good God is happy when we suffer,
she replied with a touching tenderness:
"Never does our suffering make Him happy, but it is
necessary for us; and so He sends it to us, while, as it were, turning away His
Face ... I assure you, it costs Him dearly to see us suffer…"
St. Thérèse is reminding us that when we have chosen to sin,
our Saviour suffers to witness what suffering our own actions have caused us
but He also knows that "suffering is the only means of preparing us to
know Him as He knows Himself, and to become ourselves Divine" (Thérèse).
And so it is that in her life-events of every suffering she
endured, she was inspired by Spirit Lord to seek and to find how she could use
these, especially how she could use even her sinfulness and her failings to
give God glory.
She teaches us
the Art of Failure.
When we have sinned or when we have failed God in some way
that offends His Love, perhaps we may sit in a self-sorrowful way and ask
ourselves, What good am I to God? I've sinned again: I've failed again.
St. Thérèse directs us to reflect on the poverty within our
failures in a quite different way, the way of holy listening, when in prayer we silence our minds and our mouths to hear God speak to our depths:
"How fortunate you are to be poor. That is why you will
receive much."
Blessed Marie Eugene of the Child Jesus reminds us that when
Thérèse failed or sinned, she saw poverty as a treasure because it
produced an aptitude for receiving God. When she sinned, she "hastened to
say to the Good God: my God, I know that I have deserved this feeling of
sadness (for my failing), yet allow me to look upon it as a trial which Thy
love sends me. I regret my sin, but I am glad to have this little suffering to
offer Thee. If Thou dost remain veiled-- well then -- I consent to be
benumbed with cold, and I rejoice in the suffering, howsoever merited."
And again, "If I had been faithful, I would have
received the reward of merit. I was unfaithful, I am humiliated, I am going to
receive the reward of my poverty and humiliation."
Thérèse rejoiced in every experience of impoverishment which
showed her her own littleness (Pere Marie Eugene of the Child Jesus).
"Why does God decline to prevent my headlong descent
into my repeating sin?"
In St. Thérèse's humble and trusting response to sin and
failure, we see the Light of God's Love and the light of her, and our own,
poverty. We begin to understand that with His Love and Mercy, we, like Thérèse,
can give great glory to God. This may be our prayer of gratitude to Him after
we have sinned against Him and He rewards us by disciplining us. If we
have served Him with humility and purity of heart, He rewards us in ways
uniquely for our souls.
God's Love may be a time of disciplining for our souls.
God's Love may be a time of sweet consolations for our love.
Both are rewards from His Loving Heart.
We have been graced by Spiritual Direction from St. Thérèse
of the Child Jesus and the Holy Face.
She has led us toward a spiritual understanding of The Art
of Failure.
She has given us insight into how we may humbly give God
Great Glory in the aftermath of our sin or in the holy joys of serving Him.
Through her direction, Spirit Lord offers us an
enlightenment as we continue to live in, through and with the One Who is Love,
God, Goodness longing to pour Himself lavishly into us ... that we may
become "partakers of the Divine Nature."
A beautiful reflection! As a priest, I am frequently privileged to accompany souls through Reconciliation who ask this exact question. St. Thérèse reminds us that when brought humbly to God, our spiritual poverty strips away self-reliance and allows His grace to truly transform our weak human nature. Deo Gratias
ReplyDeleteDear Father Carlos, you give us breathtaking and eternal Gifts : through you, Christ Jesus absolves us from our sins ; through you, we receive the ultimate Gift of the Most Holy Eucharist. Your voice walks us into Eternity. You give Christ to hungry and broken souls. There's nothing left to say except, Thank you. Deo Gratias.
DeleteAs a Carmelite, reading this reflection brings deep comfort to my heart, and I am so grateful to Anna for sharing such a profound piece. St. Thérèse, our beloved sister, reminds us that the interior life is not a ladder of self-perfection, but a gentle surrender to Divine Love. In our quiet contemplation, we often confront our own poverty, yet Anna’s reflection beautifully illustrates how our recognized weakness becomes the very place where God’s infinite mercy transforms our souls.
ReplyDeleteDear Friend in Carmel, yes, as our soul descends into that poverty that's awakened by the recognition of our weaknesses, St Therese's 'little way' becomes our prayer, prayer that becomes the scaffolding of
Deleteour 'impregnable fortress' (St Therese) where we will be graced to join her in Nada...
"You, Lord will descend to my nothingness and transform that nothingness into living fire".
I loved reading this, Anna! St. Thérèse shows us that making mistakes is totally okay because God always loves us anyway. Thank you for writing such an inspiring piece! St. Thérèse is a treasure to the Church and to the young people in our parish program. Sharing your blog this evening. God bless you, Martin.
ReplyDeleteSt Therese reminds us of the spiritual beauty of the children whom you nourish :
Delete"The devil is a coward , and will even fly from the gaze of a little child." (St Therese)
Yours is a ministry of love, Martin. Thank you.
Merci du fond du cœur, chère Anna, pour cette magnifique réflexion. En tant que femme d'un certain âge qui a traversé bien des épreuves, la « Petite Voie » de sainte Thérèse a toujours été un grand baume pour mon âme. Votre réflexion rappelle si justement que nos faiblesses, loin de nous éloigner de Dieu, sont le lieu même où Sa miséricorde infinie vient nous transformer.
ReplyDeleteChère Marie, Votre humble réponse m’entraîne vers une profonde directive spirituelle de notre saint mystique Carmélite, Docteur de mon âme, vers lequel je me tourne sans cesse : "Dans le recueillement intérieur auquel conduit la méditation,
Deletel’Esprit oint secrètement l’âme et guérit nos blessures les plus profondes." (Saint Jean de la Croix)
As always, dear Anna, your writing strikes a deeply reflective chord. In my own journey through the ups and downs of life, I’ve often found that our greatest moments of growth don’t come from our successes, but from how we meet our failures. St. Thérèse’s message of embracing our spiritual poverty is a profound comfort. It reminds us that grace finds its way into the cracks of our imperfection. Thank you for this beautiful piece. Your work is an inspiration. Bill.
ReplyDeleteDear Bill, you describe the 'cracks of our imperfection' . In your words I heard the echo of the beauty of the Spiritual Canticle
Deleteof St John of the Cross when he described ,"The clefts of the rock" , the Sacred Wound in Christ's Side where we hide in the deep caverns of His Heart. And perhaps where our imperfections draw us never to leave this Hidden Place of Healing...
"....if He should should take their imperfections from them, they would probably become prouder and more presumptions
still". (St Therese )
"Chiedo scusa, questo punto... «Perché Dio ha rinunciato a impedire...» Non ho mai sentito una descrizione così perfetta della mia lotta quotidiana per conoscere la volontà di Dio. Una semplice creatura che ora ha la grazia di leggere questa meravigliosa rivelazione dell'intento di Dio. Dire grazie sembra inadeguato, ma Grazie di cuore."
ReplyDeleteGeorgio, sei il mio compagno in questo viaggio nel cuore di Cristo Gesù: caro amico, sei davvero il benvenuto. La tua umiltà tocca la mia anima. Forse, quando continuiamo a ripetere quelle parole, "Perché Dio si rifiuta di impedire la mia precipitosa caduta nel mio peccato ricorrente?" , lo Spirito Signore condurrà te e me sempre più in profondità nei tesori spirituali nascosti nella Sua Santa Sapienza e saremo davvero rivestiti della Somiglianza di Dio.
DeleteDearest Anna, my heart fills with joy reading your latest reflection. Having followed your spiritual writing for so long, I am continually moved by how profoundly you capture the heart of our Carmelite vocation. You understand that our 'Little Way' is not about spiritual perfectionism, but about opening the door of our poverty to the vast ocean of Divine Mercy. To see you describe our daily struggles with such clarity and tenderness proves what a wonderful Sister in Carmel you truly are. Thank you for using your gifts to illuminate God’s infinite love for us all. Your sister in Carmel, Clare
ReplyDeleteOur "Carmelite contemplation encourages the soul to become a "low house", a "humble manger." (StTeresa Benedicta of the Cross).
DeleteDear Sr Clare, May we always share that small dwelling place with each other.
Magnifique célébration de notre petite Sainte.
ReplyDeleteCher Ami, Oui, Ste Thérèse nous enrichit de façons innombrables et sa vie est véritablement célébrée lorsque nous vivons sa
Delete« petite voie » et rendons une grande gloire à Dieu.
Спасибо за это глубокое размышление, Анна. Здесь, в России, где наше духовное наследие настолько глубоко, многие из нас чувствуют сильную, тихую связь с «Малым путем» святой Терезы. Ее смирение и упование на божественное милосердие Божье понятны людям любых культур и традиций. Ваши слова прекрасно передают ее кроткий дух и напоминают нам о том, что святость обретается в самых малых ежедневных проявлениях любви. Да благословит вас Господь.
ReplyDeleteДорогой Сергей, как и ты, «маленький путь» Терезы также привёл меня на пути и к духовным чудесам. Я узнал от неё, что когда я, возможно, смотрю особенную телепередачу, и когда Дух Господь побуждает меня выключить передачу за 10 минут до её окончания, Он примет мою маленькую жертву. Мужчина, муж и отец, погружённый в порнографию, внезапно испытывает сильное побуждение и желание выключить экран , выйти из этой комнаты и присоединиться к своей семье. Моя «маленькая жертва» помогла завоевать для Бога душу и души целой семьи. Богу воздаётся великая слава, а маленькой Терезе — честь. дорогой святой Терезе воздаётся честь.
DeleteDear Anna, May God bless you for this gentle reflection. Here in Ireland, where our hearts are so bound to Our Lady of Knock, St. Thérèse’s "Little Way" feels like a natural path of humble surrender and love. Your writing always touches my soul and draws me closer to Our Blessed Mother and our beloved "Little Flower." Thank you for sharing your gift so generously with us—your work is a true blessing to my daily prayer life.
ReplyDeleteDear Patrice, your words take me into St John of the Cross and his deep love for Our Mother :
Delete"Once, on seeing an image of Our Lady while he was preaching to the nuns in Caravaca, he could not conceal his love for her and exclaimed"
"How happy I would be to live alone in a desert with that image".
Maraming salamat, Anna, for this beautiful reflection! Here in the Philippines, our devotion to St. Thérèse is so deep, and her "Little Way" showers roses of joy and trust in God. Your words are a beautiful reminder of how simple acts of love can transform hearts. May the Lord continue to bless you abundatly. Maria x
ReplyDeleteDear Maria, your thoughts remind me of a most comforting little reflection from St Therese ...
Delete"Every flower has its own created beauty: the splendor of the rose: the lily’s whiteness does not deprive the violet of its scent nor lessen the daisy’s charm. If every flower wanted to be a rose, nature would lose her spring adornments and the fields would not be beautiful with their varied flowers…so it is in the world of souls in the living garden of God. It pleases Him to create great saints. but….. Our Lord’s love shines out just as much through a little soul that yields completely to His grace as in the greatest…..what delights Him is the simplicity of these flowers of the field and by stooping low, He shows how infinitely great He is.”