St. John of the Cross reminds us that God loves us so deeply that He gives Himself to us as completely or as little as we allow. He desires to empty Himself into our soul, God, Creator, Redeemer, Healer, Teacher, Glorious Lord because He wants to make us His equal.
Each one of us is so unique, from our eye color to our height, to our odd little personality quirks. And God adapts Himself to our uniqueness, works with loving tenderness and gratitude and begins to transform us. If we will it, our behavior, our countenance begins to reflect the Owner of all souls, the Giver of all life, the All in all.
We grow to be spiritually DNA one with Him. "The Spirit of the Lord is upon you."
But it's an even deeper awe, an awe that stuns us, that fills us when we receive Him in Holy Communion. In accepting and receiving the Sacred Host, we become physically DNA One With Him. His Flesh has become our flesh, His Blood courses through our veins, His Soul lifts ours to untold heights and depths, His Divinity is ours.
All time, God's human time and Divine Time, is ours. Our great great grandparents, our great grandchildren not yet born, our suffering loved ones who have separated themselves from us, all held in God's great and loving Heart, all now ours too. All sinners of all time are ours, the Mother of God is ours, Christ is ours and He is for us.
Through Him, in this most mystical and holy Sacrament of Union, we pray for them all...
we say Thank You to God for the grandparents who prayed us into this moment of Union;
we offer to accept every discomfort and trial that He may permit us to suffer and we offer them lovingly for the souls of our great grandchildren who will never meet us in person;
we give Him our separated loved ones and promise to do all we can to reconcile them;
we offer to pray every day and every night for all those who don't pray and won't do penance; and
we raise our spiritual arms in utter joy as we silently sing our gratitude for our Savior Lord Who is All in all and invites us to be for All in all with Him in the Father as we sup at the Spirit's ocean of love.
And we have not yet managed to return to our pew.
In this most Holy Sacrament of Communion, God makes us His equal. Angels prostrate themselves before us as we try to return to our seat, carrying the Divine. We have become His living Tabernacle. Within our being, the Father communes with Son Who has poured Himself into us. Therefore, Father is dialoguing with us. Spirit Lord calls us to sip at Their waterfall of mercy.
We are in the Trinity and They in us, for a brief time after we have received Holy Communion.
Our Lenten gift of ourselves will allow our spiritual ears to be refined to hear them speak.
If we are stumbling along toward Ash Wednesday on our Lenten journey, we may be wondering if our sacrifices of self-giving are worth the discomfort, wondering if we should stop praying because we seem to be becoming more impatient when we thought we'd be becoming more saintly, if we're growing in a self-knowledge that is showing a pretty ugly side of self and all our dross seems to be rising to the surface....if all of this and much more is beginning to happen, we are being deeply blessed because Spirit Lord is drawing us inward where God dwells in our hurting soul. And His Light is piercing our darkness and our spiritual eyes are seeing some dark and cobwebbed corners of our soul. God, the Divine Surgeon is at work within us. He is lovingly wounding us with His scalpel which cauterizes and heals, both at the same time. He is drawing us closer to Himself. Our prayer holds our permission for him to enter. He Himself is our setting out, our journey, our Companion at every step on our journey, our destination, our Goal.. He will never leave us in our Lenten purification. He cannot abandon Himself.
"God wants to make us His equal."
His Desire becomes our own. How can we meet our Maker, see Him, hear, find Him in our silent, hidden moments with Him?
"Listen! My beloved approaches. Look! Here he comes, leaping across the mountains, bounding over the hills..."(Song of Solomon 2:8)
If we feel like this is a journey that's far beyond us, that we can barely get through the struggles of our days and nights, that our ability to love is less than an ocean droplet, St. Therese of the Child Jesus and the Holy Face encourages us beyond our feelings...
"O, what a miracle. My feeble love enthralls You."
So we continue on our journey toward our Lenten transformation into Himself. We sit with Him at His worst times.
"... behold Him on the way to the garden... or behold Him bound to the column...
or behold Him burdened with the cross... He will look at you with those eyes
so beautiful and compassionate... merely because you turn your head to look
at Him” (Teresa of Jesus).
And we discover that in His worst times He is holding our own.